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From What You Thought Was Real

i.
sidewalks and street signs hide in hues
of blue and red, as the sun hides her pretty
face from the words you said. rain and tears dot your windshield as you walk away from the only thing that kept you grounded to a place you'd love to call hell.
(and it kills you, because she was no angel to anyone, yet your light at the end of the tunnel; and as much as you've wished she was your one angel in hell, you can't, because this isn't hell and it's what she never was.)

ii. here's to what never was, a toast you'd rather forget as your glass

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Daydreams and bottlecapsi ive searched through overdue library books, formal complaints and faded memories, looking for a solitary clue to where the stars i used to find in your eyes went. try as i might, i cant stand being around you, and i cant stay away.
ii after a second cup of coffee, nothing is in clear black and white. its like a glow stick without light. without a purpose, my self control evaporates, leaving my heart of switchblades and scars vulnerable. my pain, my scars, my hopes and dreams, all there for the world to see. im not sure how this started, how did you get past me?

iii there's not a rhythm or r Daydreams and bottlecaps
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Temptationi feel so out of place, a premade sequence i never learned, never fit into. I'm miles out of line, and there's no way back. but scared I am to walk any farther... What could they possible have in store for a lost bird like me? it's as if it's snowed in the middle of spring, everything i've known and relied on to be my constant, my base, has been whited out before my eyes and i'm unable to stop it. Stop it I wish I may, I wish I might. But I doubt I'll get any luck tonight. Not like I ever did in the first place.

the sky crashes down around me, and the end's still a secret kept from me. excessively bright colors flood Temptation
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Post It Notesim thinking of you again and how taking evasive action isn't working as well as i hoped, and how breaking smoke detectors is oddly satisfying.
and how caffeine withdraw symptoms are horrid,
filing formal complaints involes too much paperwork and how im cursed with a heart that cares too much.
of how much trouble we avoided, and the police
we've run from, and how shallow our breathing was after.
and the buildings we covered with graffiti, the
security guards that were too busy sleeping and how late we stayed out.
of how much trouble we both got in, Post It Notes
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Hollow Breathingi eyeliner, earbuds, and green electrical
tape. a radio dial that hasn't been touched
in years. star- stealing eyes and a
protective hand wrapped around her
forty- fifth can of Rockstar.
ii jail cells drawn around her, one brush
stroke after another. drowning in
stranger's fake smiles and haunted by
shattered dreams, her walls become
her canvas, revealing a hidden part of her
that no one ever sees.
iii butterflies escape from her light fixtures,
coastal sands come to rest around the
moldings. sunflowers, budding forests and Hollow Breathing
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Nov 19, 2009 So I Won't Be Here For Awhile
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So I Won't Be Here For Awhile

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 19, 2009, 4:07 PM

Yea, my mom's flipping out about my lovely grades. Isn't it convenient that i've missed ten days so far, and i take an honors course. Since i don't understand things immediately, as soon as i start understanding things, oh, look. I'm freaking sick again.

My brothers? Oh, no, they can't do the same quality work because of there IEPs. Really? I mean, i know my brothers can do stuff, they've sat there and told me. Mom just likes using it as a freaking excuse. So she can bash me.

I'd go on, but i'm not much of a person who really cares about pity, and i'm really kinda pissed off right now. So, if I'm lucky, I'll be back in a few days/weeks. If not, be prepared for a mass inbox flood when I get back. In late dec./ January. Oh, and there's a very big chance that I wont be able to be on during my christmas break either, since my school board fails, nd my break doesn't start until Christmas eve, and it ends jan. 2.
If it's really really important, let ~Purplecherry5 know, since she calls me and all.

-Me.